Silent scream

Spirits everywhere around me

None of them is yours, my friend

Tried to reach you, but you left me

You might hear me, but I'm deaf

Tried to write you, but you're always far

Tried to visit, but I have no car

Tried to touch you, but you don't even come in my dreams

Tried to listen, but the silence covered all my tears

Tried to reach you in the morning after a long night

Hoping then would be the moment when you're in my sight

Tried to find you in my mind and people around me

Then I came to realize there's no one here to see

Tried to ask for help or find a map to get to you

But darling, we're in different worlds, can you see it too?

Tried to get louder, not just smarter, maybe you'll see me

Then people tell me it's for nothing, I should only be

"Now quit expecting, start creating, no one has to see"

But how am I defined if no one else here defines me?

How do I leave, when I'm holding on so hard?

A fantasy, but I've only come this far

A memory, fading just as your existence

Sometimes I think that I need more than just patience

How do you know, if you're deaf to all my words?

How do you show a blind person what the future holds?

Tried to reach you in the evenings after a long day

Hoping then would be the moment when I'd be okay

Turned it all into a silent scream

All my fantasies are just a dream

Yes, I know, I might get to live them soon

But until then, let me write my way and bloom

It's only noon.