Honey

 

Moving out and moving on

Your Name written on a wall

Found you in a motel bar

Didn't take me very far.

Afraid of being too loud,

I stayed hidden in the crowd

Couldn't see her, but saw a blur

Those jokes were kinda similar.

Oh hey, honey, going somewhere?

Moving towns won't take you far.

Saw you already flirting with her

My name on your tongue has become a slur.

Oh hey, honey, did you hear?

Texting me won't get you near

If at the end of the day

You decided not to stay.

Took you 3 weeks to replace

What you promised, a disgrace.

Lied to me right in my face

Thought he wouldn't tell me?

All the walls seem to have ears,

Hearing all those dried up tears.

When you take her in your bed

Make sure I'm already dead.

Oh hey, honey, what is wrong?

When she's gone you're not so strong.

Switching teams more often now

Made me sometimes wonder how.

Oh hey, honey, you forgot

Having you's not all I got.

Having me slip through your fingers

Now your mind's the one that lingers.

One day

 

One day I'll delete your birthday from my calendar.

I'll forget your name, who you were and how you broke it all.

My therapist won't even know who you were

All those attachments will have been long gone

One day I'll be living your birthday with a big smile on.

Used to consider your birthday my unlucky number

It was the same day as my best friend years ago died.

There were so many warnings, but I came for you, came for trouble

Only for you to say that all this time I have lied.

One day I'll delete that one picture that I have of you

Wondering why you lied when you could have be true

I will still keep my promises, hide all your deep secrets, 

One day I will finally be able to let you go.

And it is so.

Never Again

Now you got me counting flowers,

Now he loves me, now he doesn't.

Now you're talking about power,

Got me locked up in your tower.

Now you got me feeling sick,

'Cause I'm here, fell for your trick.

Never even gave me flowers,

Now he loves me, now he... doesn't?

Now he loves me, now he doesn't.

Now he loves me, now he...

L-o-v-e-s me-not

Opposite of safe and soft

Came for love, or so I thought

That's before my heart you chopped.

L-o-v-e-s me too?

Got me falling south for you

Just to climb back up in pain.

Never Again.

Now you got me counting flowers,

Now he loves me, now he doesn't.

Now you're talking about power,

Got me locked up in your tower.

Now you got me feeling sick,

'Cause I'm here, fell for your trick.

Never even gave me flowers,

Now he loves me, now he... doesn't?

Now he loves me, now he doesn't.

Now he loves me, never again.

Silent scream

Spirits everywhere around me

None of them is yours, my friend

Tried to reach you, but you left me

You might hear me, but I'm deaf

Tried to write you, but you're always far

Tried to visit, but I have no car

Tried to touch you, but you don't even come in my dreams

Tried to listen, but the silence covered all my tears

Tried to reach you in the morning after a long night

Hoping then would be the moment when you're in my sight

Tried to find you in my mind and people around me

Then I came to realize there's no one here to see

Tried to ask for help or find a map to get to you

But darling, we're in different worlds, can you see it too?

Tried to get louder, not just smarter, maybe you'll see me

Then people tell me it's for nothing, I should only be

"Now quit expecting, start creating, no one has to see"

But how am I defined if no one else here defines me?

How do I leave, when I'm holding on so hard?

A fantasy, but I've only come this far

A memory, fading just as your existence

Sometimes I think that I need more than just patience

How do you know, if you're deaf to all my words?

How do you show a blind person what the future holds?

Tried to reach you in the evenings after a long day

Hoping then would be the moment when I'd be okay

Turned it all into a silent scream

All my fantasies are just a dream

Yes, I know, I might get to live them soon

But until then, let me write my way and bloom

It's only noon.

Night

 Oh, dear night 

Holding onto me so tight

So many of my memories belong to you

So many "I don't know"s and "I love you"

Waiting for a car to pick me up

Or going home after I've been with those I love

Or maybe just dreaming about them

Wondering when I will see them

And you're so empathetic that not only am I crying, but you chose to rain over my tears

To wash away my fears

To bring me some silence

Replacing the violence

Bring me some stillness into your storm

Make me be the one who can let you go

Without worries of tomorrow

Oh, dear night,

With your deepest cold moonlight,

I'm not asking for mercy,

I'm asking you to stay with me, 

As only in complete darkness there are no shadows to see

You only come at artists' hours

You hide our pain and turn it into towers

We climb them and recognize our power

As in all your memories we get to shower

Wondering which one is mine

What's the truth and what's the lie

Between "hello" and "goodbye".

Oh, dear night,

Dressed up as a lonely knight

Come now and reveal your light

That the days have kept from us

Show your eclipse and your stars

We shall know now that the days

Only stole your light and ways.

Parallel lives

 

                              

What if we got parallel lives?

What if we lived with no goodbyes?

What if "hello" would never stop

Because our lives would never drop

What if you got all the success?

What if your smiles have no regrets?

What if you just forgot to be?

Got lost in serendipity

What if we love at times we cry?

What if we never have to die?

What if we're only switching lives,

Forgetting all those tears and lies?

What if our dreams are about us?

Forgot one life and lived the other

Is this why we wake up tired

Then having to live the latter?

Your enemy could be your friend

When you cross life's line in the end

The one you love the most can be

Yourself in other lives, you see.

Love never dies

That wasn't the beginning and that was not the end.

Love never dies, there's no need to pretend.

If I had to ask for one wish in this world

It would be to remember not what I've been told,

But that love is eternal, no beginning or end

To remember it's not born, therefore, has no death

To hear you once again in this world that's so cruel.

Praying for one hour, like the first day, at school.

I'm willing to pay the price of love in tears,

As I have been already for so many years,

But there's one thing I ask for, a favor would be:

When I die, come and meet me, like the first time, you see...