Family

 

The knot in my throat and terror in my eyes

The sound of the door and the wishful goodbyes

The screams were too silent, sometimes I still feel

The things the judge said I should not have to deal with

'Cause ten turned to fourteen and no one would believe

Their echos I still hear, saying you're family

And those clothes I can't wear now, they still hide my voice

Now I re-live the stories with some other boys

Who treat me like their toys

Sometimes I call them friends, I got no enemies

I avoided all clubs and their hosted parties

Even being around, sometimes not even close

Brings me back memories of what once was the worst

Wished I could be a ghost.

Blamed for all the bad things you did, your regrets,

Our Christmas table had cookies with threats

When you tied my hair I could feel your revenge

Every bit of hatred got you on the edge

You forgot what you pledged.

The table could not hide my body anymore

And each time you came home I'd get scared by the door

Everyone that knew you said you wouldn't do that

Once again, I was evil, too dumb and too fat.

My body still hurts as you haunt to this day

I keep saying it'll stop, that you'd end this someday

If they knew everything, I am sure they'd still say

That you're my family and I'm the one that should pay.