Second time

 

One day in between Novembers 

You met me on a crowded street

You remembered I wanted you

And you dropped my heart at our feet.

One night in between two Mondays

You texted me you wanted me now

That my image was stuck in your eyes,

Asking if we could meet somehow.

But I couldn't say "yes", I couldn't admit

That I still wanted you now that you wanted me

I couldn't open my heart again as your favorite crime

because...

I couldn't grieve you a second time

Couldn't obsess over someone else having what's mine

Couldn't love you again for a possible ending

Another closed chapter that I was defending.

Couldn't give you a second chance

Wondering if tomorrow we could still dance

But I could decide smarter this time

Not to open my heart after your goodbye.

And one day you'd listen to my favorite song

Wondering at which step you were so wrong 

That I couldn't say "yes" after you made me cry

because...

I couldn't grieve you a second time 

Couldn't obsess over someone else having what's mine 

Couldn't love you again for a possible ending 

Another closed chapter I was still defending.

Couldn't give you a second chance

Wondering if tomorrow we could still dance

Couldn't get myself to tell you a lie

Said "I want you, still, but now I couldn't...

... grieve you a second time,

Losing what's never been mine."