Second time

 

One day in between Novembers 

You met me on a crowded street

You remembered I wanted you

And you dropped my heart at our feet.

One night in between two Mondays

You texted me you wanted me now

That my image was stuck in your eyes,

Asking if we could meet somehow.

But I couldn't say "yes", I couldn't admit

That I still wanted you now that you wanted me

I couldn't open my heart again as your favorite crime

because...

I couldn't grieve you a second time

Couldn't obsess over someone else having what's mine

Couldn't love you again for a possible ending

Another closed chapter that I was defending.

Couldn't give you a second chance

Wondering if tomorrow we could still dance

But I could decide smarter this time

Not to open my heart after your goodbye.

And one day you'd listen to my favorite song

Wondering at which step you were so wrong 

That I couldn't say "yes" after you made me cry

because...

I couldn't grieve you a second time 

Couldn't obsess over someone else having what's mine 

Couldn't love you again for a possible ending 

Another closed chapter I was still defending.

Couldn't give you a second chance

Wondering if tomorrow we could still dance

Couldn't get myself to tell you a lie

Said "I want you, still, but now I couldn't...

... grieve you a second time,

Losing what's never been mine."

April 10th

 

In the first day of the week

Didn't have to tell you twice

Was the third day that we spoke

In four months of paradise. 

Wasn't fine the first five days

Acted nice for about six

In the seventh figured out

Wasn't something I could fix.

In the eight I couldn't tell

If in nine I could forget

And then bring myself together 

From the news in April tenth.

Iubire

 

I-aș vorbi ei între buze, ca pe tine să te simt

Aș da timpul înapoi, încă o zi să mă mint. 

Te-aș căuta... printre pagini, îns-am ars cu ele toate

Încercând să scap de tine, încă dorindu-te, poate.

Mi-am pictat realitatea peste un tablou incert

Nu m-am supărat pe tine, însă nu pot să te iert. 

Am pictat imagini blânde peste chipuri fără sens

Am avut intenții bune pentru cei ce nu simt dens.

Ți-am vorbit în limbi în care tu n-ai putea să m-auzi

Mi-ai murit în suflet. Iară. Însă toți au fost prea surzi.

I-aș purta parfumul, poate aș putea... așa să simt

Cum să-ți fiu. A ta. Iu-bi-re. Însă fără să mă mint.

Getaway car

 

I spoke to the lover in you for a moment.

For many more moments before you found out

You silenced him into my mind with a few words

I couldn't silence him for months.

I know that I still keep him somewhere

Couldn't have run very far

But I refuse to look for him.

Saw him in my getaway car.

Can't look for him, nor in that way

As if I looked for you once more

How could I dare to look your way

When you knock at someone else's door?

The clock gets closer to midnight

I know our time is almost up

I got a plane to catch tonight

While you're having fun in the club.

Will tell my new friends about you

Will show them lyrics that we know

A different name, met someone new

Lesson titled "how to let go".

In a few years, you'll find my picture

Pandora's box under the bed

With things you keep hidden with stricture

Forgotten somewhere in the shed.

You'll give the box away this time.

You're moving out, I'm moving on 

You keep my picture. Not a crime

While talking to her on the telephone.

And I stay quiet, but I know

The many rules you broke so far

To spend the time you spent with her

Once more, in your getaway car.

Deja vu

 

So many thoughts were occupied

And all of them haunting my mind

So many pages written, never seen.

Something still came up in the Sun

My adoration's just begun

So many mornings, nights and in between.

Emotions seem so volatile

Deja vu of you being mine

So many dreams to catch up on, it seems.

Now do I want to let you go?

My friends saying "I told you so"

Too many signs to follow, it begins.

Oracle

 

Went to the oracle to see more than I had to

"The price you'll pay is bigger than you think, are you sure?"

He puts his hands on my head, his thoughts on my mind

And I see you with her and she looks so kind

And you look towards me, there is the price I pay

To see you, you see me, but will I be okay?

Opened my eyes, as I couldn't see more

Left the room running and I shut the door

Cannot run forever, got a price to pay

Asked the wind where to go and what people would say.

Walked alone on a street with no end on both sides

Then I find a card and the card never lies

It talks about a teaching and taking a step back

And that emotions are running so high on the track

Nothing new to see here, not a lot going on

Now the only thing left to do is moving on

I look back on the street, see a silhouette

It's the oracle watching me and my regret.

Grief

 

I wanted to put my heart on the stage, I dropped it while climbing the ladder 

Could have been worse, could have been better, I would have preferred the latter

My steps were all silent, but you heard them all, now I'm back to being a shadow

I got what I asked for, this time - clarity, now I'm running alone in the meadow.

Echoes of souls walk around me, being so loud in my head

Walking on glass not only breaks it, with no start there can't be an end.

Make sure they stay clueless while still expressing some of the things that you feel

Painted my hell as Heaven, just one last time, for the things that could have been.

Phantom pain in my chest while I'm wearing your words on a Monday that feels like the end

My therapist said I will write out of joy, one day when I'll forget that we met.

Wearing my pain through these silent steps forward, as behind there's nothing to leave

Some things never happen, but they are still worth it to pay for with a dose of grief.

Cupid

 

My doctor said I should stay away

"Don't drown in feelings, he's not here to stay.

He's not here for you and you're not his to hold"

But I never listened to what I was told.

They said I learned so fast, little did they know

That I have never been good at letting go

There's a fine line between being brave and so stupid

Didn't want to hurt you, so I shot Cupid.

Now the sirens sound and they're coming for me

Once they find out, won't be setting me free

Been haunted by things you cannot understand

It's the price I pay as you live in my head.

Azi și orișicând

 

Nu de tine-ncerc eu să m-ascund,

Căci îmi bântui fiecare gând.

Ești al meu secret și jurământ

Mi te ador azi și orișicând.

Nu-i nimic ce nu ai mai făcut 

E devreme, poți să stai tăcut 

Încă mai pășim în necunoscut

Mi te-ador din plin, azi și orișicând.

Văd curcubee-n lipsuri, vreau să te descopăr 

Să vedem o lume-ntreagă fără vorbă 

Să mă iei la dans, deși nu știm dansând 

Mi te-ador, dragule, azi și orișicând.

Să te pot privi, din ochi te săruta

Să mă uit la tine, fiind doar a ta

Să te simți iubit mai mult ca oricând 

Mi te-ador, iubite, azi și orișicând.