Spirits everywhere around me
None of them is yours, my friend
Tried to reach you, but you left me
You might hear me, but I'm deaf
Tried to write you, but you're always far
Tried to visit, but I have no car
Tried to touch you, but you don't even come in my dreams
Tried to listen, but the silence covered all my tears
Tried to reach you in the morning after a long night
Hoping then would be the moment when you're in my sight
Tried to find you in my mind and people around me
Then I came to realize there's no one here to see
Tried to ask for help or find a map to get to you
But darling, we're in different worlds, can you see it too?
Tried to get louder, not just smarter, maybe you'll see me
Then people tell me it's for nothing, I should only be
"Now quit expecting, start creating, no one has to see"
But how am I defined if no one else here defines me?
How do I leave, when I'm holding on so hard?
A fantasy, but I've only come this far
A memory, fading just as your existence
Sometimes I think that I need more than just patience
How do you know, if you're deaf to all my words?
How do you show a blind person what the future holds?
Tried to reach you in the evenings after a long day
Hoping then would be the moment when I'd be okay
Turned it all into a silent scream
All my fantasies are just a dream
Yes, I know, I might get to live them soon
But until then, let me write my way and bloom
It's only noon.
