No direction

 

I know you will betray again tomorrow, but today I love you one last time

We're stupid kids that wanna be somebody, losing ourselves in others for a lie

The skeletons in your closet still haunt you, but nothing new under the Sun appears

You keep handing me jewels between the curses, without wondering once 'bout how it feels

They think I fear your judgement every moment, without thinking that once we switched the turns

I wanna be a friend and not a season, but you are too afraid of all the burns

Your way of seeing me has compensated for all the ways I've seen myself so far

If only you would love yourself a bit more, we wouldn't have to wish upon a star

And darling, every day is now so different, but all of them have one pattern - the same

You wake up feeling tired of this mirror, I wake up feeling tired of your game

Our shadows never live in the same world, but often touch each other more than us

We keep walking with no direction, fearful that one of us misunderstands the fuss

My Story

 

You are both the villain and the hero in my story

Would never confess a thing, would never say sorry

I know you're not innocent, but I can't help noticing

One, two, three, four times when you've been reticent

You forgot my name, but remembered who I was

Wait 'till Imma get my confidence, see how it goes

Imma tell you something, you're gonna twist it around

You know I'm not dumb, though I never make a sound

Put me on the spot, I'll admit, it can get fun

When you get alone with me you always choose to run

Hesitation lives in between two breaths of mine

Sometimes what kills you is the thing keeping you alive

Lyrics never ending of something that never starts

Like to keep you guessing, but would never heal my scars

Once upon a time, there was a beautiful end

When you read my mind, we won't need to still pretend

He's been begging me for a minute more to stay

Sometimes all I wanna hear is that it'll be okay

Few hours before midnight my world's twisted upside down

The only thing that keeps me sane is never letting you down

Trust issues

 

Envy on your lips and praises on his.

Thought you were my friend, baby what is this?

Acting like you're God, but I am his favorite.

Didn't want to do this, but you almost made me.

Hide behind your laugh and your silly jokes.

Thought I had trust issues, but you do the most.

You think I got it easy, wish I stayed a ghost

Look me in the eyes, honey, are you lost?

My therapist told me, chose not to admit

Then you came and showed me it was all a myth.

I know you're performing, almost had me there

Looking for my flaws, but know I play fair.

Talking about me and these things I said.

Called you out, but do they know where this all led?

Your side of the story's making fun of me.

None of your assumptions are reality.

Loved me in the dark, in the light you switched teams

You know I've been haunting all your favorite dreams.

When you're the one mentioned, tell me how it feels

Sounds familiar, how Awesome is this?

Starstruck

 

Kept pouring you wine while you're getting me drunk

You came empty handed, he's filling my cup.

You like seeing me thirsty, offered you a stage

Now you had me staged and it became so strange.

I love you when I don't hate you and I never hate

You're so salient among them, you could never fade.

Let the dices roll - decide what would be our fate

They say "careful with your poems before it's too late".

Caught you wishing in some moments for proximity

Familiarity increases attractivity.

Sneaked up in my mind and made yourself some space

Played your cards and made your moves, laughed right in my face.

Got me feeling starstruck, baby, rollercoaster of emotions

What a wild ride that we've chosen, not a day without devotion

As time passes, I keep saving all these hints you give to me

Familiarity, increases, again, attractivity.

Makes a good plot line to keep unspoken words as oaths,

Even though I almost died believing your words.

Always chasing, running, climbing, racing with the lured

Play with fire one more time and we will both get burned.

He told me in that evening: "no one is worth your tears"

While in love, they say past midnight, you shouldn't have fears.

Stayed behind your objective and you burned my butterflies

You like being chased and wanted, I like hearing more than lies.

Deal with the devil

 

I've been playing God with the devil.

They heard about the time I turned evil.

Got blood on my hands and the clock is ticking.

Hide the evidence, now this got me thinking.

Might have made a pact with the judge

I'd be his third eye, you can hold the grudge.

Spin the wheel, who will be the next victim?

A pair of blue eyes 'bout to start convicting.

You've been playing devil with the gods

Gotta start rethinking your odds.

They call it trouble, I call it sweet revenge.

Sometimes you fall when you get too close to the edge.

And now they hate me, call me the betrayer

I'll be your karma, but I can make a prayer.

One day, maybe it will be my turn,

Although they say that witches never burn. 

Major Arcana

 

Even when I'm quiet, chose to use my voice

Also after you thought I made too much noise.

Once again, so inspired by rejection

Didn't think that they'd die for my attention.

Now you see, I have died for yours already.

Deja vu, while you're playing the detective.

My heart grows at the thought of your love's vortex

Then it drops and the thought of your god complex.

You like having control and heading the league

Aiming so high you don't have to dig

Expecting to be alone in the line,

But the clock is ticking and this is my time.

Big reputation, not enough to quench your thirst

How does it feel when for once you're not the first?

Not a threat, but you love to give reminders

As in tarot, when the king lost all his fighters.

Tried so hard to stay in Major Arcana

Ace of Cups is not talking about drama.

Sixteenth card in the deck might burn your tower.

Nothing could ever stop your thirst for power.

Seen

 

Didn't think I'd once reply the last.

Sometimes those that you love break your trust.

Wish I could ask you "hey, are we good?"

Among things I know I never should.

Maybe I misread those late night texts,

Maybe I forgot about effects.

My friend told me I should prolly stop

Giving you more stuff to talk about. 

I don't get it. While she's in your thoughts,

You decided to connect the dots.

Never wondered how I might have been,

Only picked on things that you have... seen.

Didn't mean to give a sign,

Started once upon a lie.

Didn't mean to leave a trace.

You turned love into disgrace.

One day I will find my place.

Tired of living in a race.

Everything's moving so fast

Didn't think I'd reply last.